My Healing Process


Just like another human being, I've been hurt before.. and the one causing it probably is having some good life now, and I pray nothing but the best for him.

Healing is not a linear process, its true that some days feel good, some days you cry over an chocolate cake in supermarket. And today, I am checking the wound if it still there.

Oh yeah, it still there. 
Topics around marriage, Islamic wedding, and finding perfect spouse still triggered the pain.
Alhamdulillah, it means my heart is still functioning and still processing the grief.

I will be fully healed someday, but for now, I take it as a sign that my interest is not anywhere around marriage. If it should happen, then it will. Because this time I have learned the right way. But my interest is to enrich my brain with new knowledge, to make myself a library for my kids.

It is clear now that my generation won't be the generation that will conquer Rome. So, might as well be prepared to gave birth to one.. or some.. So I still have my contribution-- (and by "birth" doesn't have to mean physically in labor. Could be ideas too!).

Read more books,
Join more classes.
That is my healing process.

Tuesday, 25-02-2025
What a beautiful day 
Alhamdulillah

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