About letting go



One thing that I just realised about letting go is that this is not a linear process.

This is an iterative process and you do it multiple times. And you bleed every time.

You let them go when you're in the airport, thinking the first time you meet each other.

You let them go at the grocery store when their favorite chocolate cookie is on the display.

You let them go when you see sunrise, or eating his favourite ramen on purpose because you miss them.

You let them go every night when you cant sleep, pretending the pillows is their shoulder, but its not anymore. 

Wishing and believing that someone better will come along and replace that part, although it seems vague and impossible now because you can still smell them in your head. 

Doesn't matter how much you love them, when they make decision to leave your life, you have to let them go. You just have to. Life is not always about what you want, but also about who wants to be with you. We just secretly pray that we share that mutual feeling with whoever will decide to be with us one day.

You let them go daily or even hourly. 

We let them go every time the good memory comes in. 

They're just that. A good memory which once bring us a thousand happiness. 


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Bogor, 30 Oct 2024.

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